Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Smoking, drinking, and laughter...

I don't know why I smoke.  It just makes me more nervous and jittery than I already am.  But it, as well as alcohol and many other things, is an addiction.  I'm not using that as an excuse (please read the scripture link).

"I'm on the wagon."  A good way to remember what the "wagon" is: The "wagon" is a water wagon.  I very much prefer to "ride" as opposed to walking (or running away!), sleeping in the gutter, and/or waking up to another personal "hell".

Update as of October 4, 2011: Well, I went five weeks without any drink and last night I screwed up. :-(  I guess it truly is an addiction/illness as "they" say.  I really think now that I'm "self medicating".  It's amazing - I'm pretty messed up right now, but I still feel the Presence of God, the Holy Spirit, speaking to me.  Thank You, Lord!

No matter what I've gone through, I've pretty much kept my sense of humor, dry as it may be.  I'm very thankful for that because I consider it "therapy" and, hopefully, an inspiration to others.

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C's status as of 20111002, 9:27pm: "I've never been better."

Sunday, October 02, 2011


I'm sitting here eating, smoking, and wasting time when I could be writing down my thoughts.  Hmmm...

I've been playing much more guitar lately.  My finger callouses were pretty gone, but now I almost have them "up to par".  I love playing the acoustic guitar and have always loved playing since I learned the instrument in 1974, thanks to my good friend, R. C., who is in my prayers. 

Please add him to your prayers.  He's had MND (Motor Neuron Disease) for many years now, and it's progressively getting worse.

Both he and his wife are some of the most generous people I've ever met.  Back in '74 when he was teaching me how to play, he bought me an inexpensive guitar with a case!  Before long, he told me that I played better than him!  That's the kind of friend he was and is.  God, bless him!

It was another beautiful day here in the Midwest.  I love this time of year!  I really enjoy going for short walks.  I also enjoy finding some wood to whittle on.  Most of the time I just whittle small crosses to give away.

About a week ago I gave one to a young man.  It was probably the best cross I had ever made.  I didn't get the chance to add thread and glue in order to "finish" it because he was sitting on the same "wall" as I was when I carved it.

Okay. Time for bed.

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Saturday, October 01, 2011

Praise God!  I haven't had a drink in five weeks!  I have to give the glory to Him because it's an answer to many prayers. I couldn't do it on just my strength alone.  I can only pray that this will be encouragment to others.

Now, all I have to do is work on smoking, but that shouldn't be much of a problem.  I've only been smoking for a little over a year. :-{

"Seek justice, love mercy, and walk humbly with your God." (Micah 6:8)

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